I suffered from anxiety and depression for over 30 years. It got worse during high school and later even worse than when the deliberate attempt of my life as difficult as possible. This is my story of great emotional pain, the long years of isolation, hardship and despair, and how little by little I found my way out of this dark tunnel of despair and in the light of wisdom , joy and relief. With all the problems, if there is more and more commonly, symptoms of panic disorder and do not know at first what they have destroyed my days at school and ruining my concentration at school. I went home exhausted, frustrated and unable to concentrate on anything, especially homework. I had a very limited social life and no girlfriend. I suffered from what seemed an eternity of social anxiety, loneliness, severe acne, weight loss, mysterious and crippling depression. I had an extreme dislike for most types of team sports and had a very difficult period, trying to fit anywhere. From elementary school to college, I suffered much bullying by others and a lot of rejection and unrequited love “by members of the opposite sex, I felt attracted, leading to a vicious cycle of more details ‘social anxiety, resentment of the other popular and successful, and overwhelming sense of rejection, isolation and alienation. The pain continued through the school (where I studied nutrition, psychology and astronomy), especially in art and in my working years. I could not find jobs that were simple and hassle free as gardening, painting and craft-type projects. I finally had a job will take care of an office building with a garden and fountain, has required extensive maintenance and support. I still work today. During the 70s, 80s and 90s, I tried in vain to find the cause of my sufferings by religions, etc., doctors, psychiatrists must be difficult for her “all that disappointed in your head” diagnosis “She looks with much worse than just “anxiety neurosis” and later diagnosis of anxiety disorder! I could not believe it. I thought I was the highest heart disease, kidney failure, cancer, stroke, cancer, diabetes, poisoning by lead, mercury, DDT, or any combination! You name it, it felt as if I had! But again and again, all my tests have shown no significant or not very important, toxins, no poison, anything that is useful and helpful. I tried counseling, Christianity, Christian and Religious Science, Eastern religions, meditation, yoga and positive thinking for many years, but still my problems worse. I started doing more and more like an idiot and a good candidate for the madness that more and more of my family and my friends gave me the “all in your head so that the Snap Out of It” insult to injury “treatment”. Almost all of my friends had no understanding or sympathy for my chronic problems, so they left me alone. I spent most of his time alone and very isolated. With people so afraid of me, I often had to run in an isolated, quiet room or a place where no people around. I could not fill all the forms, or my name on my check or credit card to shake the public entrance, because I am too. Some of my signature looked completely bizarre, and filled all the forms from illegible. I went through hell just trying to fill a request. Talks would end abruptly, because I always lose sight of what I meant, and continue to have problems, remember, what the other says. I would like to stop mid-sentence because I did not complete, leading to an incredible embarrassment, fear of another attack and feel like an idiot. This mental block will almost always be worse, or a critical moment as it happened, as if a very serious problem to explain, in an emergency, confrontation, or in a speech before a group of people who are in an extremely strong fear of public conversation and socialization of all kinds What was always when I needed it most, I would have the least! I also had many physical symptoms that drove me crazy. My heart still beats, and / or speed and staying awake all night (especially when) any type of medication, which I think have suffered a heart attack. I often wake up then terrible fear of nightmares in a cold sweat, and total confusion. I do not sleep in a position again, and five o’clock in the morning. So, I sleep all day sleep all night to compensate and cope with catastrophic stress, dizziness and depression. I also felt a great sense of worthlessness, fatigue and exhaustion, which made me crazy if I needed to get anything done. The costs are piling up, and I have never been financially, no matter how much I fought the irresistible need to sleep all the time, especially after eating. Very misunderstood, I was regarded by others as very lazy, under the influence (although I have never taken), and hard-working poor or as much “dead wood”, as I did not could support. Imagine what happens growing up and trying to find my own place in the world! After some massive concerns in 1982, I was almost constantly agoraphobic. To avoid panic terrible, I always had in my area or stay inside the city limits. This problem has been a disaster for dating, and were therefore left alone. As I get older, I became increasingly angry and cynical about life. Often I am very frustrated that my mood and break things, I lose. I have a hundred different ways of thinking that my life has ended, I was so desperate to end the suffering serious emotional, but he was too afraid to try something. My life was like an internal concentration or hell on earth. My weight loss to try foods I was “allergic” I was still as victims of the concentration camp to avoid. Nothing to eat what I have gained weight, it would be just wrong, leading to severe gas, bloating and diarrhea. Nothing in my life was going right, not even my digestion! Meanwhile) (early 80s to early 90s, I tried various medications such as imipramine, xanax, Buspar and tranxine. They were expensive and only me side effects very disturbing and unpleasant without profit. In fact, it seemed all the medicines I tried only my symptoms (depression, panic attacks, spaciness, blackouts, dizziness, fatigue, anxiety and heart problems a lot) worse, especially imipramine that I had to make two separate studies standing for 6 weeks. I was so frustrated and angry against drugs, I finally closed on them, especially with the need to wait many weeks to “work” for find that they have the opposite effect! This does not mean that others who try drugs, especially now that there’s so much to keep available to act more quickly and with fewer side effects. Forced into my situation Try something else, I looked for things such as nutrition, herbs and alternative medicine. I tried to experiment with food for many years, but only with limited success, which sometimes seemed like Drugs are not back. However, the results were enough to convince me to look further into the subject of nutrition therapy and to examine whether such a thing actually exists. Developed in the late 80s j ‘I finally had an “Atkins” type diet rich in raw fruit and vegetable juices, boiled vegetables and whole proteins such as fish, poultry and offal, and many supplements herbal and vitamins. This new scheme made my depression and anxiety under a certain amount of (short) control seemed to follow! As I continued to tinker in the 90s in “to my diet because I knew that there must be something to do, I found even more foods that have contributed to food and could not identify. It was not the idea that a diet with emotional problems can be treated in a fancy hope! It was true! This bit of encouragement pushed me with even greater care, fanaticism and zeal. Over time, the food, I found myself more vegetarian, with continuous improvement, but there was still much room for further improvements. I started drinking lots of water between meals instead of snacking, which, even more, which led to this improvement. I realized, has been nibbling on a variety of dental problems are causing food sensitivities and poor reactions mental, emotional and physical are no other place if all foods consumed in a day were grouped in a healthy and complete meal, while the rest of the day is spent removing toxins in drinking water. In 1994 I wrote a book about an entire system and yoga lifestyle that leads happiness, enlightenment and wholeness. I am of course possessed very satisfied with my health and what I ate and ate, how come, many years. I often do all day in the Libraries, behind books, etc. (and later the Internet) to intensive research on diet and neurochemistry. People my diet has been avoided because everything I mentioned and found it very difficult, far from the subject. Prudent and limited food has been scientifically guided my savior and the only hope for a life without fear and paralyzing depression. More information and videos related to this article can be found here: http : / / www. wholejoy. com / healinganxiety / index. pdf Russell Symonds (Shaktivirya) has his life in search of a life devoted entirely and the “totality” of life. His Web site, the science of the whole is a spiritual and nutritional information and research to help you find your keys at all (the eternal joy, love, happiness, rejuvenation, and more, dedication). There is no the greatest thing of beauty, value and joy, as a whole! The rest of its original articles and his free online book, The Science of completeness I & II can be found here: http://www . wholejoy. com / full / NEWS. html

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